today at work

hmm...today work was kinda tough actually i could say but because if a great boss and my colleagues seems to be friendly..i do not really face a lot of problem..it seems like my time now is very tight almost everyday...im mentally exhausted for the past few months thinking alot of thinking that cause to pick up smoking again but i have to endure...i shouldn't start again...hmmm....today when i came back home...i was online and i saw some of my juniors pictures that shows their time when in the councillor...it suddenly reminds me of my time when i was being one too and being the head of one the committee...i started to miss that time that when i look at those pictures...it make me shed my tears...omg...it really shows i miss my time being one...i think is due to my discipline mistress who have groom me alot in my personal improvement that really benefits me till now..i could say that i do not regret even a single bit when i was in it...i could say during my time as a councillor was kind of tough as i have to juggle my studies and school events but however i look through the bright side which is more of what the outcome would if i face all this in the future...in the end from where i standing now...i am way a different person which is full of confidence in everything i do...i think the key to improve personally was to have a positive mindset in everything you do...if you do have it...you will feel that your time is being wasted with what you are doing and in the end when u reflect back your time in life would be just a waste as you know that there is alot of thing which could be done last time but never be done...ya...tmr gonna work again...i think during the weekdays i will be exercise time....gotta shape up my body back...=)

today in school

today had ut..i forgot abt it till when my school going to end and my friend told me had ut...damn suck man...last day of school before close for a few weeks had a ut...sigh...today problem statement was pretty hard i could say and my brain is nt working for the first time in today's problem.....i think im too tired to think....i guess dancing will be starting soon with the brand new group that hopefully will stay strong till the end of time.....i dun wan every group i create would go to waste again....kinda suck i think especially when those previously dance with me went to other groups...they always being psycho with other crews outside..kinda suck feeling actually..sigh..well, i gt nth to say..=x...only my baby gal would give me strength....hmm...holiday cmin sn...might be preparing for my PP and also put some time for work to earn some money....

my life

hmm...today post was actually for ytd things that goeson in my life....i was quite tired in what i am doing currently becoz i think i've been thinking too much and also ensuring that whatever i plan in the future was not being disrupted with other things...i am a person who always look on the future and seeing the world around me to ensure there is some unique or different thing that happen in the world....it might coz my loved ones around me feel piss with me sometimes in terms of spending time together...i do the planning for my future so that i could really have a great future and my loved ones would enjoy the time together..ytd something happen and i was just simply wandering why she behave that way when i am actually do not do anything wrong...it was pretty upset because she jus simply could talk with others but not me...haiz...i gt my own feelings...i couldn't just wait till times up then u will talk to me...coz i think its pretty silly to just keep mum and making me wonder what exactly happen..i dun really like playing mind games when it comes to something which is not really worth finding for...sometimes i think they need to think and analyse the problem properly....problem can be solved in any way...it is just based on the person determination to change and seeing a better outcome in the years to come..

today in school

today i could say i did not really learn much as it is almost the same as last week. it is just to let us to understand more about the ERD(database module). hmm...today had lunch with my gal and went up to class quickly after knowing that i have done something wrong in the table that was asked to create. today ut was totally suck like shit...i have no time lah...till i shiver to rush myself to finish it up...damn!!!straight after ut sent my gf for facial and it was like at marine parade and we have to rush there..but luckily she wasn't that late though...then when i went home, the bus took me more than an hour...traffic jam...reach hm at 7 plus...after doing my rj and stuff, play comp while waiting for my gal to reach hm....tmr gonna work at ten...hmm...gonna be a long day and i'll be having lunch alone again..haiz..

Got another job to stablise my finance

hmm...it's been a long time i have never been blogging...pretty busy with alot of stuff..i always have a thing in my always which i really need my baby to listen to me and be there for me to release my stressness on the things that i have plan for my future. I was quite happy with the job that i got which i hope it could help me to do what i suppose to do..well, only me and my gf knows...can't really tell you guys.. I find myself kind of weird actually to be thinking of earning as many money as possible because for most teenagers, they would not think this way during this period...For me, i think is because i want to lead a happy life for my family and also for my love...I just love to make them happy by spending some of my money to let them enjoy...It is just me to see their happy smile on their faces...i am now wanting to get back to my business if possible...got to do my homework and stuff...but this time round i would take it slow and steady...i dun wan to things to go fast which i would not be able to feel my hardwork...i just hope to find any partner who have the mindset of their business no matter small or big because i am keen to do anything to make sure my aim that i set will come true...it is quite hard to find anyone who is darng enough to do business....most of whom i know whch i ask them whether they would want to do business and their respond would be just "do not want to take risk.""doing business can cause a great loss in money."hmm...i guess singaporean just want to be in the comfort zone and not challenge themselve to do beyond what they think they can do in their life....I think for now, i'll just work alone before getting anyone join me....