something is drawing nearer.....

today i never really do much..jus basically slept till 12 plus then get up and have the mood to read newspaper even though the news are nt so interesting..lol..then my fren call me up to do PP...so yeah wen out to vivo and do PP since i have nthin betta to do...she also gt ref..so yeah..jus went out till break fasting time...hmm...the days are drawing nearer...hmm...


ADIOS
KIMMY

Asking to myself

i have always been thinking during my free time...what would i do in life?what are the things that i am going to do to make it happen in what i have set in my goal in life...i also wonder..why my life have to be sad? why people around me could not really make me happy? am i not worth knowing and keep? b'day cming soon..i dunno whether shld i celeb or nt...hopefully my parents wun do the same thing to me again...i hate it...money wun make me happy all the time...i need the thing that you should show it to me..im jus sad..why am i into relationship? i have many reason behind it not because the trend where people get into relationship and blah blah...being into relationship mus have meaning behidn it...and yes i do have my reason...you should knw what i need..hmm..haiz...my 19th b'day...wee~~~ or shld be *oh*...


ADIOS
KIMMY

Finally!!!!!

EVENT ON SUN

Woohoo!!!!it's been very long time i have never blog...lol...alot of things have took up all my time...haha....i gt myself a harddisk during comex show...and it was the last day of the roadshow so gotta rush there after my work on that day...haha...luckily there someone able to acc there...thank you so much...next time i treat u...feel so bad especially going to a crowded place just to acc me buy my thing..lol...




EVENT on SAT

ok...basically when sentosa with valerie and her group of friends from her course...
haha...so yeah...quite boring though because mostly are her friends which are girls and they just simply have fun and i'm jus taking picture of myself...

-only when i'm totally bored then i'll do this-
-too bored-
-sorry, really bored...lol..
-attempt to climb but cannot make it-

Reminiscining

Some of the journey that i have gone through in my world of HIP HOP

(Not being able to get all the pictures posted as most of the picture is inside another lappie..so yeah...hmm)












today while i was browsing through the pictures of my journey in dance have given me the sweetest memories ever from where i have started...i still remembered the first time i was addicted to hip hop dance while i was 12...i started by listening to the ryhthm of the song and slowly goes out to do some move...every single thud sound giving me an idea how the movement was meant to be so that it would like nice...ever since then i have not step into any competition or having my own crew when i step into secondary school...i join a group back then when i was just 14 but i am one of those non-active member so i was being kick out...well, i'm too involved in school stuff so kinda have no time...then when i was sec 4/5...my passion and temptation have came back and really itch me to move every single bit...and surprisingly during that time, my school having this dance competition...when i knew about this, i decided to create my own crew in my own classmates since most of them interested...so the training was tough shit because have to choreograph and stuff....i felt my life was so fill up with this till i have no time to do other things..and during the competition...my crew won from the school vote...we have a few groups to compete from teh school dance group and also another hip hop crew in school which have been performing in school events..BAM! i was so happy..all the hardwork have been paid off...from then onwards i started to venture more move..started to learn from people...train underground and met with Zach..my former instructor who volunteerily ask me to join him train personally in small group..hmm...it was very tough training with him...it was full body workout...but i didn't manage to continue train with him due to events outside to perform with my new form groups and teaching other new hip hop crew in my old school...my instructor kicked me out..hmm...and that was the day too that my ex gf asked for a break up which demoralise me that makes me stop for a few months or two..it was quite a huge blow for me....my life was really full of ups and down...and being a dancer wasn't easy especially when i am into relationship due to the fact they are quite hard to understand...they might just left you without words...haiz...suck big time...as for now, i jus simply choreo my own move and doing up some songs which i love to write and also doing up some remix of songs....hmm...when i look back at the past...it's hard to imagine that i have gone through alot of shittish things..

today went out to shopping..

today was simply quite stupid day for me coz basically the start of the day was doing some workout then aft that during the noon meet my classmate to hand over her card...so ya..then met my other fren...which is my other classmate to go out shopping at vivo since she have no plan so met her at khatib and then head down to harbourfront...went arnd the shop but most of the shop offers and discounts have ended ytd...lol..nt my luck...lol..but i bought a jacket which cost me $121.30 and pants which $31...hmm..cost me alot.. i gotta find job...no choice..lol...then went back home..i dunno tmr wat im doin.. oh yeah..when i was on the way home..this song start linger in my ears again...another meaningful song....I'M HERE WITHOUT YOU...




THE LYRICS


"Here Without You"

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me




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*ADIOS*
KIMMY

the song which full of meaning...

This song is so meaningful which make me feel so accompanied whenever i am sad...you have to read the lyrics and the vid clip...



Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live In
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of Death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna Die alone without you here,
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you, and the memories of Us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna Die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then Continues in the background]

I stand here alone
Falling away from me, no chance to get back home [x2]




I would recommend those people who are feeling down to listen to this song...you will sure like it...

another thing which i found that makes me total upset...

ok...the thing now is that i can fixed the picture rite on where they belong..the jigsaw puzzle have gave me an appropriate answer and it do not confused me at all...i have found the truth and it is pure evidence...so sorry val, even though i said i wun write regarding this matter but i think that i should...just to make you real damn clear of your action..Val, you have actually told him to wait for u till when you are able to accept him...and you make me wait for five years for you..wat the hell is this? do u think is weird and unfair??you are making it more stressful especially when two guys are hoping for u...i do not know why you behave this way...anw, all the best to u then...from now onwards, im satisfied with my findings...from what i have know...you are just behaving like a few character which you should know urself in ur behaviour...*sigh*..

*ADIOS*
Kimmy

gt a new haircut

hmm...today surprisingly i never went out much...jus went for a haircut..lol..hmm..thought of going out today but not so sure who to ask out..lol...feel like getting something for myself..it's been quite smt i never go out to malls to check on new clothes...tmr having hip hop performance...im nt sure whether tmr really have one...gt to check it out tmr...hmm..who shld i ask??hmm..today bascially waste my time doing workout and getting enough rest...feel so shiok when have enough rest after being deprive so much the last few weeks..lol...today is really super sian...lol...i rather go school or smthing..


*adios*
KIMMY

yesterday class chalet

On wed was the start of my bbq...my fren fetch me from my house to take all the food and utensils for teh bbq on the second day of the chalet...was pretty nice car...chevrolet...then reach there basically do not have much things to do because no plan for the first day...so we went buy food and they start to play some games which involve alcoholic drink...damn...it was funny...one girl and a boy gt drunk and their reaction is super funny which to a certain extent i find it scary when they become violence...lol...then didn't slp much...slept only two hours then went to macd to eat breakfast...the second day of chalet, i went for my dance class..hmm..no choice...i paid it for one mth and i dun wan to waste it...lol...then went back to chalet...ws super hungry when i manage to reach there...haha...body still aching due to insufficient slp i suppose..lol..as for now onwards, i would stop interoggating and stuff..coz i know you would not wan me to find out the truth...the more i found out the truth, the more hurt i guess will happen between me and her..so ya..


*adios*
Kimmy

today chalet!!!!!!

haha...ok...i'm so happy to go for my class chalet...wooohoo...can't wait...i bet there will be a few gals out there too...*woot*...i mean nt my classmates...=_=...lol...ok...i got smth which is very irritating to talk about...hmm...if u think me and him behaving childishly? i suppose its nt...i'm simply just being sarcastic towards him because he's just behaving like a bastard?oops...i'm so sorry...but too bad...i knw lah ur godbro..lol...you will defend him...wtf...ok...you said you will go out with him too but then when we went out you didn't tell him afraid he dun love you anymore??lol...haha...i knw wat exactly you are doing ok....i knw he msg u saying he love you...*tsk tsk*...aiyo...godbro...godbro...stupid shit...lol...anw, i guess from now onwards if you want to go out with me then you ask me...i do not want to be the one asking...and yeah...i can go to the extreme that if you really still wan to go out with him...i guess you do not find me anymore...i do not want to be used...i do not wish you to split up your love for me and him...yeah..i do not wan you to feel so stress so i guess i am the one suppose to leave rite? And let your godbro take the route? i knw you have been msging in nice words and stuff but with me will be different...guess much rude i suppose? hey val, i know you well k...im observant in the way you react...you do not speak to me of the way you used to talk with your friend...and yeah...since from what you posted in your blog...i have to seriously think that i should treat you different in every aspect...yeah...coz i think that it would be meaningless for me to show my full affection to you which everytime when i ask you some personal stuff and you will tend to be angry...yeah..next time if we go out also, we fork out our own money already..since you treat me as friend...yeah...hmm...you godbro would willingly pay for everything for you...coz he wanting to be with u..so yeah...and you also have feelings for him...yeah...and you also hardly explain to me why you have to tag him in chin saying that whether your godbro miss you or nt?sigh...till now you can't really explain to me...and the way you tag is a no joke at all...c'mon lah..i have seen your other godbro blog...u tag him as "kor,....."...as for this zhi yong...oops....no.nt at all...whatever i am doing now is actually wanting you to think for your action...whether you are being selfish enough to break up with me because of your family and meeting up with your godbro and having some small affair???oops..godbro should not say love you to godsis so often you know...*tsk tsk*...i didn't expect to be in this way...Val, you said u wan freedom.?there you go...you have much more freedom now...even though last time i do not control you a single shit or maybe when it comes to touching of guys i suppose...c'mon, that time i was you bf..so hell yeah i mus put some boundaries if not what is bf for...sigh...GUESS what...i have find out from someone that you have actually said to the person that when you go out with him...you do not tell me...when you go out with me...you do not tell him...hmm...what is that?Is that consider unfaithful to the person..?i dun mind playing games with you guys k...i can play better than you guys think of...if you think you can cheat me in every way...try me...i have face this so many times...*tsk tsk*...i guesss you were kinda shock rite when i found out the truth and talk to you regarding you and your godbro(zhi yong)?my instinct of you and ur godbro having an affair started when you do not let me see your msg...last time, you allow me to see and read...duncha rmb?esp when between your ex bf...i'm feeling super hurt k for your action...if you feel stress now...i dun think its necessary for you to feel stress..i ought to be the one..because i depend on you too much...if you think that being by my side and stuff would make me feel good..nt so...coz of what had happen...i dun think you truly like me of who i am...

anw, stop with the crap answer you gave me in your msg when you can't explain to me every single sensitive questions that i posted to you...Thanks


*adios*
KIMMY

today in school

today my faci was really funny...ask us to come for class and present our work on the second meeting...cool rite?lol...and it end freaking early...my faci treat us pizza to eat and play some game to it...whoever lose have to drink and stuff...yeah.....hmm...then very sian so i ask her if she's ok to cabot class..haha...she dun wan to do work so we went out to watch movie together...money no enough...worth watching and very meaningful...watch till abit emo...yeah...then she was very tempted to eat ice cream so in the end bought ice cream which add with yogurt...quite nice...she like the ice cream more than the yogurt...lol....then she suddenly feel so hungry and ask me whther wan to eat at pepper lunch..hmm..pity her...so we go eat...she seems very hungry...haha...hmm....ok...maybe her godbro do not knw exactly who she went out with but yeah...i knw she wun tell him also...i do not why but yeah...sigh..wth...ok..enough of my blogging nw...

today in school

today as per usual...do the same thing...go to school and blah blah...well, its kinda childish for him to behave in that way at his age i guess...especially when already gone to army?lol...wth...pls lah bro...dun behave like a kiddo...u knw why i read your blog?is because you behave like an asshole just like a secondary school kids which goes around finding girls and firstly make them become godsis then go deeper which in the end into relationship..c'mon..its old school...sigh...i shouldn't say much to this guy...you just go ahead in whatever you wan to do ok..pathetic...so let's talk about her...i'm not saying about me being selfish..jus look at it in this way....all this while i have put in all my efforts to u...i have shower you with everything which every girl dream of..i wan ppl to envy you of how i treat that rarely a guy would do...but when you ask for a break up due to ur parents thing and then you want to go into another relationship when we promise each other in five years we will be back together...?look at it in this way, if you really truely love me....you would simply dun go into relationship and just concentrate on your school work...i just dun get it...i have seen that your family actually gave you everything like love and stuff which i do not get at all...get wat i mean?i depend on u to show me that, that's why...you might be seeing me selfish in certain extent but look at the picture in a different angle...which is much worst?i told you everything about my life..you knw how it is like...hmm...anw, i could definitely say that you are the one that cares for me lot more than all my EXs...hmm..thats why i treat much more special than them..thx for showing me all the love that you gave me....

today life

today i happen to go back to see that guy blog and see what he wrote..sigh..c'mon lah...the way you wrote you want sympathy huh...?*hur hur*...from her huh..?lol. i dun mean to be mean but look at yourself lah...c'mon..you dun even know a single shit of how the scenario now then jus dun blindly blurt it out...i dun give a damn who read this..i make this clear...this my blog and i dun care who the fuck is not happy you can just confront me...yeah...u gt that...

ENOUGH of this shit...get a life man...GT IT?

You may be smiling or jus a slight laugh instead while looking at my blog?sigh..lol..c'mon man seriously...u shld know...
anw, today im doing my PP and yeah doing it at orchard coffeebean..lol...yeah yeah...pretty bored at home so i went out...thought of watching the firework but did not able to catch it...haiz..wat a waste...bt nvm...then had dinner outside after go back home...

I'm nw pretty mad which make me wan to pump(push up) more each nite...damn it...hmm..i mus control myself...

my life about ytd

ytd was pretty tired tats y can't blog...lol...ytd morning was suppose to have breakfast in the morning at macd..she was kinda late so we do not have breakfast...went to school early to have some short nap before class start...ytd i had database and the most shocking thing is that only five turn up for class and as time pass by....one by one leaving the class without telling the faci..*woot*..i felt pretty bad leaving the class...hmm..u knw the feelings...like if ur putting urself in her shoe...how do u feel u knw...get wat i mean?hmm...however, i still leave the class because i am the only one who is inside the classroom...so went to her class watch some movie..haha...then do some discussion with her regarding the event that she organising...hmm..can't wait for the jive camp...haha...it has been quite some time i did not go for any camp ever since step into tertiary level..haha...so yeah...if im nt wrg...first time...anw, she organising this event..i wan to see how well she do this thing...haha...bleah...i will give her some tips in between the day of the camp or after it so that she can do better...jia you! i miss organising events...hmm..its my favourite to do event even though it is quite tough and take quite a lot of time...haha...wee......i hope i could organise the dance event successfully...ok back to the day that i have gone ytd...i acc her to tanjong pagar for her briefing in an event...met my old friend who i worked with during SFF...haha...then send her home...i had quite a good time with her...i jus simply miss her cuteness...haha...i love you always...

today in school

ok.lets talk about today wat exactly happen...hmm..this morning woke up pretty early liek 530 coz she said need to wake up early so that can have breakfast at delifrance and we did today...then today lesson was super boring...i do not have intention to do anything...it was java module...i was like 'jaw dropping' when looking at the question...omg..pretty alot of things to do..i dun care...was super slack today then aft sch was suppose to go for dance class then rainning and stuff...in the end nva go coz she and her fren feel like nt going...haah...then went to tampines mall to get some sushi to eat before going home...ya...hmm..then aft i send her hm then i go off le...

today no school

wee...today no school but yet wake up quite early...at arnd 11...haha...usually i wake up at arnd 2?haha...anw, today went to paragon to have some chat up on business and do on my PP which is almost done..wee...haha...hmm...it was quite a long time i haven been chatting with my fren regarding business...i guess i shouldn't tell u guys coz u guys will be shocked from his origin of the company..haha...it was pretty nice day chatting but kinda sunny so not really convenient to walk around after that....then meet her at sengkang after her work...she complain she was hungry so i bought her some snacks to fill her stomach...so sad she do not have a decent meal before going to work..can see her very hungry munching an old school tidbits(twisties)..haha...then i reach home...wee....i have to mt her every single day to reduce my misses of her...gdnite.

my life

today was planned to watch movie instead of going to school...coz i am pretty no motivation to do especially when the class is like decreasing number as most of them declare holiday already...hmm...i wonder what will they do at home when having holiday...for me, i can't sit still at home...i wan to do smthing...smthing meaningful in my life...haha....today watched dark knight...OMG!...it was super nice...the storyline is awesome...i love it..i watched together with her...hehe...worth watching...like damn totally....next movie would be money no enough and some other shows...hah...i miss having a real entertainment for myself...ive been busy working during weekends then weekdays to school..hmm..today went to eat at sakae!!!!nicey nicey...haha..my fav place to eat...even though the place renovated but i dun feel any cosier...haha....then went back home and do my rj and stuff...wee....hehe...tmr another day...

today in school

There was alot of thing happen today...hmm...firstly, she was shocked looking at my hand...hmm...i injured my hand purposely due to the fact that i was kinda shocked when i knw the truth...hmm..the wound haven heal yet...quite painful..hmm...then ytd i had a big quarrel with her...i was shouting madly at her...and surprisingly i didn't realise my surrounding...my parents were around...they heard me shouting...this morning, my dad asked me to take care and dun fight anymore...jus giv and take so that everything will go back to normal...bt they did not know that there is something between me and her...hmm...another surprising thing my dad keep calling home asking my whereabout...afraid that i was demoralise to do things...he kept asking me not to fight anymore...hmm...im so sorry dad..i knw you care about me even when u work bt i really owe you alot...even though you do not show me much love but always shower me with money, i know somehow you would still notice me..today quarreling had cm to an end which we talk and settle things down..i was satisfied with what we voice out...even though we were not together but in my heart..i still love you like how i use to...coz we cry together, we fight together, we even share happiness together.......ur smile actually make me wan to smile more because the sweetness in u have awe me and make me want to wait for u in five years time...i promise...i will wait for u...i will....

my life

today was the most suckiest day ever...i do not do much and i feel regret not to do much of a things today...i slept half of my day and do some work out....aft that doing my PP again which have to be in draft format.....hmm...suck i suppose...today chat with jingsi which is my couzin gf...hmm..talking abt my cousin having an affair..i was quite shock of how he behave nw...he changed alot...wtf...becoming more mat rep...wtf...i didn't expect him to do this to a gal esp teh gf...hmm..i guess i have to sit down and chat with him face to face....tmr will be another day in school for me...doing my usual thing...hopefully i wun be so emo as what i used to be recently....hmm...omg...someone pls make my day...

today outing

today i had two post...hmm...guess i am quite free...tats y....today had dinner with my sec sch teacher...it was pretty nice chat at breeks...manage to get together with my old classmates...then surprisingly...the fireworks was just beside us...and we happen to watch the firework from inside the restaurant...i was super awe by the fireworks..it brings me back when i watched it with my baby...while i was watching the fireworks, i was hoping she could be beside me watching it together...i miss those time...then i went to popeye with my frens..they actually wanna watch midnight movie..bt i dun wish to coz im still tired and do not have a proper rest....i need to do some yoga or smth..to aid me to have a very good slp...hmm..tmr i have no plan at all...guess will be at hm...tats all...

the start of the day

this morning i woke up pretty early like 5 which i felt that i have smthin on in my mind...i think i suffer from amnesia...i could not sleep peacefully...my heart seems to be crying...now..i do not have a job...my worries add more till i do not have appetite to eat smtime...i have been asking around for jobs so that my money could still generate but then hais...i have to work harder to find job..atleast a decent job and earning...hmm...today going out to celebrate my teacher birthday at yuki yaki...hmm...thought of eating sushi...hmm....i wan to watch some of the movies with my gal as it has been a long time that i do not have time with her as both are pretty busy with their own things...i can't just live my life with just earning money..my life will be so sucky...i do not enjoy life at all...i need my gf to be with me...i need someone to support from the back of what i am doing...hmm...

my life

today was quite a smooth day i suppose...it has been quite a long time that i did not blogged due to the fact that i was quite busy and tired...hmm..my eye bag is killing me...i always feel very tired...why can't i stop thinking of making money..this is suck man..it is killing me...i need someone...someone to help me to relax and know how to enjoy life...maybe you might be wandering why i always think of making money due to the fact that i have alot of aim in life...i think with the aim in life will lead me to a direction that makes my challenging yet wonderful as i am able to learn everyday...i really need my baby.........alot..coz without her...my motivation drop like shit...lately i have been very moody...i think she can realise it too...coz i need her attention badly...she is everything to me....she is the one that i have been looking for in my life...my life have been quite screwd up...i am going away from my aim now...i am so freaking emo lately..i wan to be happy...pls B...pls make me happy......haiz.........sadness overcome me......

today in school

ohok...finally back to my blog....its been very long since i wrote something in my blog...i've been having too much of activities and not enough sleep......hmm....well, wat to do...i make my life this way...sucks huh? i totally agree with ya...today i had Java, damn...i was so pissed of for the whole day...i do not why...i was just mix of the feeling sadness and unhappiness...maybe i gt the wrong side of the bed i guess....today's problem statement was pretty tough to handle....damn....i feel so damn useless....haiz....hmm.....lately, i realise my gf had a godbro.....hmm....which i feel kinda uncomfortable actually...seriously......like smsing her like quite often recently...like wth...hmm...maybe i should get my self godsis or smth...hmm...

i dunno....


*confuse*

today not working

hmm.....finally i gt time off to do what i want.ive been working lately that i find myself no life in doing things which i like...today doesn't do much...jus went out with sis to check out new and cheap clothes in town...lol...and also buy some gift for my nephew...lol...time running very short and we had to head back home but before that we went to macd to have some food to fill our tummy...haha....damn hungry lah...then aft that take cab home even though its damn near to our hs...very lazy..tats y...(gt transport for wat....mus use mar...lol)even though it is abit exp...hmm...i miss my baby badly...she's been not in town for days already...hmm...hopefully can see her soon...

today at work

damn!!!!today was quite tiring for me...hmm...working at M1 was not that easy afterall..smt the customer can be sarcastic, idiot or funny people...smt i dun give a damn to those who do not respect me at all...i jus refer them to my colleagues...lol...this kind of customers must show middle finger..lol...they can be super cheebyish...lol...anw, it was kinda fun workin there...nw i knw...working in this kind of area usually have to play around with my own colleagues if not can't survive at all....this is life in the working world...different kind of environment have different way to adapt to the place...either the nice way or vice versa...coz if not being able to adpat to the environment, u are jus like working at a desert without anyone helping or guiding in any way...lol...

today at work

hmm...today another tiring day...haiz..i find myself no life already...almost everyday gt smthin to do which i find that sometimes i could not have a proper rest...hmm...today she went to clarke quay...jus wandering what shes up to there...hmm....i simply can't sleep today because keep thinking of her...i just gt some bad feelings thats all...and my mind keep prompting me to either msg her or just let her have fun since her sis jus went for rom today...hmm..nt been eating well too...sucks life...sigh...hmmm.....

today at home

well, ytd i did not blog cause was pretty tired due to work..hmm...when i worked ytd, it was quite fun actually..lol...nt much of a customer bt my colleagues were an asshoel i suppose...i did not really talk to them unless it is really important that regards to work stuff...i dun wish to talk to them too because most of them thnk they are very good...fuck u all bitches...i jus realise my job was more like a slave work when i work for long...need to switch on the computers, need to login in every computer...fuck it lah....u guys trying very hard to make me feel left out..i dun mind a single shit...u wan to scold me...go ahead...i dun give a fuck..u wan to throw me out of the job...go ahead...i dun mind because i would feel happy to change to another job..being with you guys do not really make any different in me to feel belong to the environment...aft i worked, i fuck off the place...let those motherfuckers to do their stuff inside..i could say they have no life at all...anw, enough of ytd....today i stayed at home for the first time which i find it quite hard becaus ei have the tendency to have a headache if i stay at home for long period of time...lol....my baby went for facial and refereeing at kembangan....tmr i gonna work again...well, i have to have a positive mindset and always think that i am here to work and not being pin down by those bitches and bastards.....

today outing

today went out with my baby to go shop...manage to buy some...yeah...we went to bugis...bt spend the day there then gt to send my gal home as her mum cook dinner..yeah...my bestfren ask me to join him but at the last min i rejected coz was pretty lazy unless i have a car to drive around...i would not be a problem...lol...today i do not really do much...lol..i am quite quiet for my work during the weekend that cause me pretty lazy to do alo to things today....lol...i always love baby...miss her badly..

today at work

hmm...today work was kinda tough actually i could say but because if a great boss and my colleagues seems to be friendly..i do not really face a lot of problem..it seems like my time now is very tight almost everyday...im mentally exhausted for the past few months thinking alot of thinking that cause to pick up smoking again but i have to endure...i shouldn't start again...hmmm....today when i came back home...i was online and i saw some of my juniors pictures that shows their time when in the councillor...it suddenly reminds me of my time when i was being one too and being the head of one the committee...i started to miss that time that when i look at those pictures...it make me shed my tears...omg...it really shows i miss my time being one...i think is due to my discipline mistress who have groom me alot in my personal improvement that really benefits me till now..i could say that i do not regret even a single bit when i was in it...i could say during my time as a councillor was kind of tough as i have to juggle my studies and school events but however i look through the bright side which is more of what the outcome would if i face all this in the future...in the end from where i standing now...i am way a different person which is full of confidence in everything i do...i think the key to improve personally was to have a positive mindset in everything you do...if you do have it...you will feel that your time is being wasted with what you are doing and in the end when u reflect back your time in life would be just a waste as you know that there is alot of thing which could be done last time but never be done...ya...tmr gonna work again...i think during the weekdays i will be exercise time....gotta shape up my body back...=)

today in school

today had ut..i forgot abt it till when my school going to end and my friend told me had ut...damn suck man...last day of school before close for a few weeks had a ut...sigh...today problem statement was pretty hard i could say and my brain is nt working for the first time in today's problem.....i think im too tired to think....i guess dancing will be starting soon with the brand new group that hopefully will stay strong till the end of time.....i dun wan every group i create would go to waste again....kinda suck i think especially when those previously dance with me went to other groups...they always being psycho with other crews outside..kinda suck feeling actually..sigh..well, i gt nth to say..=x...only my baby gal would give me strength....hmm...holiday cmin sn...might be preparing for my PP and also put some time for work to earn some money....

my life

hmm...today post was actually for ytd things that goeson in my life....i was quite tired in what i am doing currently becoz i think i've been thinking too much and also ensuring that whatever i plan in the future was not being disrupted with other things...i am a person who always look on the future and seeing the world around me to ensure there is some unique or different thing that happen in the world....it might coz my loved ones around me feel piss with me sometimes in terms of spending time together...i do the planning for my future so that i could really have a great future and my loved ones would enjoy the time together..ytd something happen and i was just simply wandering why she behave that way when i am actually do not do anything wrong...it was pretty upset because she jus simply could talk with others but not me...haiz...i gt my own feelings...i couldn't just wait till times up then u will talk to me...coz i think its pretty silly to just keep mum and making me wonder what exactly happen..i dun really like playing mind games when it comes to something which is not really worth finding for...sometimes i think they need to think and analyse the problem properly....problem can be solved in any way...it is just based on the person determination to change and seeing a better outcome in the years to come..

today in school

today i could say i did not really learn much as it is almost the same as last week. it is just to let us to understand more about the ERD(database module). hmm...today had lunch with my gal and went up to class quickly after knowing that i have done something wrong in the table that was asked to create. today ut was totally suck like shit...i have no time lah...till i shiver to rush myself to finish it up...damn!!!straight after ut sent my gf for facial and it was like at marine parade and we have to rush there..but luckily she wasn't that late though...then when i went home, the bus took me more than an hour...traffic jam...reach hm at 7 plus...after doing my rj and stuff, play comp while waiting for my gal to reach hm....tmr gonna work at ten...hmm...gonna be a long day and i'll be having lunch alone again..haiz..

Got another job to stablise my finance

hmm...it's been a long time i have never been blogging...pretty busy with alot of stuff..i always have a thing in my always which i really need my baby to listen to me and be there for me to release my stressness on the things that i have plan for my future. I was quite happy with the job that i got which i hope it could help me to do what i suppose to do..well, only me and my gf knows...can't really tell you guys.. I find myself kind of weird actually to be thinking of earning as many money as possible because for most teenagers, they would not think this way during this period...For me, i think is because i want to lead a happy life for my family and also for my love...I just love to make them happy by spending some of my money to let them enjoy...It is just me to see their happy smile on their faces...i am now wanting to get back to my business if possible...got to do my homework and stuff...but this time round i would take it slow and steady...i dun wan to things to go fast which i would not be able to feel my hardwork...i just hope to find any partner who have the mindset of their business no matter small or big because i am keen to do anything to make sure my aim that i set will come true...it is quite hard to find anyone who is darng enough to do business....most of whom i know whch i ask them whether they would want to do business and their respond would be just "do not want to take risk.""doing business can cause a great loss in money."hmm...i guess singaporean just want to be in the comfort zone and not challenge themselve to do beyond what they think they can do in their life....I think for now, i'll just work alone before getting anyone join me....

today work

Today last min my manager ask me go for work...hmm..no choice...coz no one cover the girl who suppose to work that day...when i reach there at around 330, i was kinda bored even the crowd is much more as compare to the previous days i worked...bt smth funny happen in the evening at around 7...got this nerdy guy with his round spectacles which i think is an working adult (coz he look old)wanted to buy a sandals of a kid...plus, the sandals is some superhero in the kids channel...lol...i pretend not to look at him and i didn't even serve him at all...lol..i stand one side and looking at him trying the sandals...lol...then i talk to one of the promoter there which sell perfume...the auntie is a nice lady..very friendly..she was kinda surprise of the way i talk...she said i am different from the rest of the malays...im very polite when talking to her...thats wat she said...lol...hmm..i think alot of chin think that malay guys do not have sense of manners...i hope my behaviour have change her mindset of concluding that all malay guys are in one kind which is the negative side...smt i wonder..why do the malays want to tattoo their body and make themselve look very ugly...some have good looks and pretty features but due to their modfication in their body that cause to look super ugly...omg....some even married with a child...hopefully their children will not be like them..sometime due to this minority of malays which behave, dress up and doing some modification in their body to look 'fierce' have cause the rest of the malays to be affected through the ppl from other races looking down on malays for not having a gd future...hmm....hope i could make a change to my community so that the perception of the rest of the races would be of a positive side rather than negative mindset..

sadness overcome me

today was really bad happen to me...i was so sad...till i have no mood to talk to my friend when my friend and i went to go for an interview....hmm...i was freaking down till i feel like i do not know wat else to do in my life....i am a failure to everything....i feel like i do not always have what i have wanted in my entire life..HAPPINESS...i think it wun happen to me...even jus now when i went out for a walk...my parents dun even know im outside...can u imagine that...haiz...whenever i'm alone...i always think that i will walk alone rain or shine and being the loner guy walking on an quiet place....tears will roll down my cheeks thinking about people getting their happiness in their daily life...i do not want my tears to roll down my cheeks making me look like a real loser which i am now....happiness really had to get everytime...its a matter of how we face in our daily life to ensure that we get the happiness that we want every day...hmm....yeah....till now i still can't slp at all..

daily life

From now onwards i guess i'll jus put this same title everyday unless something special or that cause me to really voice out my feelings....haha...today work was kinda fun than ytd when i work...manage to make friends with other promoters...no choice got to make friends if not it would be dead boring to be there working with not much of customer to serve...haha....during my break gt to eat alone..haiz...some more raining heavily...argh!gt caught in the rain jus to have my lunch..sigh...had a burger thats all...not much of appetite to eat...nt feeling well...hmm...then gt home at arnd 6 plus...my phone was kinda jam which really piss me off...wat if there is emergency calls and messages which i do not receive on time...haiz...fuck sia...i feel like throwing my phone again...the last time i threw it when i had a quarrel then i threw it...hmm..i think becoz of that day my phone can't really work well...hmm....stupid of me..sigh...miss my baby alot...been a long time i nva met up with her...haiz...can't meet her much often...her parents will suspect...haiz..

today work as a promoter

Yesterday i do not really gt a good sleep becoz i was thinking hard how to earn money since im having holiday and i am the kind of person who do not like to waste time to slack at home..if possible earn as much money as possible...hmm...today my work is located at tamp mart station there...my manager ask me to come at 11 but then work at around 12..wth...then nd to wait for the sales executive to give me a call before i start work..then while waiting for his call, i sat at one corner near the mrt station...i look around and observe very single person passing by in their reaction and behaviour..it was kinda cool though...then smth captures my attention, it was those people who do some donation stuff..i wonder why do they still do it when the job is like super stuff and the pay to do it was little...to do this kind of job takes alot of effort and most people would not donate their money to some kind of charity organisation...in the news already stated that money often given to other countries to help out...but will other countries help singapore in any way...you can see for urself...Singapore are so generous that even the high position job is given to foreigners instead of locals....wat the hell is wrong with singapore now?alot of talented pools of local never get teh chance..really stupid i think for singaporean to allow foreigners...even though labour is cheaper...wth...

today outing

today i never do much...i jus went out with her to watch a movie...STEP UP 2...woohoo!it was damn cool though we were both freezing inside the cinema..haha...nva bring jacket tats why..haha..aft that went to her grandma place for awhile since after watching movie she gonna buy psp and going with her parents and her parents going to drop by at her grandma hs before they all went to queensway mall..hmm..then i go home aft that...nthin to do at hm...i jus keep thinking of how i could make my dream happen...i think i need to do alot of research and also making sure i have a job which could actually help me partly in making my dream a reality....i pray hard i would be able to make it come true...hmm...i kinda sad too in the sense of my relationship with my gf...i dunno wat cause them to have bad impression of malay guys...im way differ from any malay guys out there...i have aim in my life...i have set my goals...i knw that most other races feel that malay are the notorious kids which have no bright future at all...but everything have change nw...malays are on par with the rest of the races in every sector...hmm...but no matter wat i gonna prove to her parents that i have the capability to do anything and having a good future...

the only free time

hmm...its been two days i didn't blog..lol...kinda busy with my dance stuff...almost everyday had training till evening and also comp jus ended ytd...we did quite good in it...gt the standard with the rest of the dancer...lol...so yeah...kinda cool actually the event...i quite enjoy that comp...that was my first time dancing with my baby in competition...haha...i always hope i could get a girl who able to dance so yeah...i met my pretty bubbly gf..haha...i can't stand the way she dance...make me drool...wuahah...hmm...on the day of the comp before the comp started, my crewmate were damn nervous...haha...i was like abit relax and sitting at one corner...maybe i was kinda tired to be nervous...lol...well done CREW!..haha...hope we could still be staying strong and active in dance....ok enough of ytd...


today...i didn't do much...jus go with my baby to ref at australian international school....it was early in the mornin gt to reach there...my game was at 245 and i dun really have much of a prob in officiating it today...then suppose aft my game, goin to my hs with my baby but she have to go home early for dinner so send her hm instead then i head home....thats all....=)

Hi

hi there,
it's been quite an ages that i did not blog ever since last year when there is this girl who use to blog tell me it was quite interesting to blog and share the day with the rest of the world and friends...hmm...i think that i really need to blog because i do not wish to waste my day by not telling people what i have done....i have a lot of thing to share about but well i can't simply wrote everything down becaqouse there load and loads i could talk about....hmm...my life was kinda good lately with my current gf who is there for me in almost everything and supports me...i do not why today she was quite upset with me suddenly when jus nw in the afternoon we were happy till i send her home..hmm..wheneva she give a signal she angry at me or sad, i would know that something is not rite that i have cause her to be so upset..hmm...its my wrg.....i knw.....